Ok - since I have done the triathlon I am having a re-occurring dream! I have had it at least 3 times now and possibly 4 but didn't realize it! If that makes any sense. The last time I had it was on Saturday night - and I believe it was brought on by Karl insisting he was going to teach me how to swim and I WOULD do another Tri. When he talked about it you could literally feel my heart beating outside of my chest!
Here is my dream: Any help you could give would be awesome!
The first time I dreamed this dream I was all alone on a bike ride but I was apparently in a race - as I am riding down the street people are pointing and clapping and cheering me on but they are also counting the "1" me. I ALWAYS come to the same corner and turn right - I do not know where I am but it ALWAYS looks the same. Approximately 50 meters after I turn right I come to this staircase - I know that I have to get off my bike at the staircase and carry my bike down the stairs. Each time I get off my bike and carry it down the stairs to what looks like a path that will take me across this bridge but inevitably every time I get to the last stair the staircase fills up with water and in order to get across to the other side I have to swim under water with my bike. Of course I never make it, I ALWAYS wake up remembering sitting at the bottom of the stairs with my bike but frozen and unable to move forward.
That was my first dream - each time after this there were more people in the race. The second time I dreamed it their were 3 people and I am ALWAYS last. The third time I dreamed it there were 5 people. This past Saturday night I remember being the 23rd person.....(which also happens to be one of my favorite numbers - 3 and 23 are my numbers!) Weird I know! No matter what I am the last person down the staircase and every time I get to the bottom there is water that I can't get across.
Now, let's recall a few things from the triathlon. I was one of the first people in the water because they release us by age and I happen to be an old fart in the gym! I was THE last person out of the water. I swam not to win but to save my life. After the swim - I was mentally OUT of the race. I pretty much biked the 20k with no competition (that's what happens when you're the last one out of the water) and my 5k caught up with some people and was able to pass.
So, the question is - I am still scared? Or is this a sign of some sort? Am I really subconsciously thinking I should do this again?
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