Thursday, January 28, 2016

I refuse to let you defeat me...


I never look ahead at the workouts...
but for some reason on Tuesday evening when I was looking for my WOD I let myself "peek" at the WOD for Wednesday and Thursday...

Well.  I shouldn't have done that.

There they are first thing Thursday morning...FIRST THING...Muscle ups. It was an EMOM - 2-5 muscle ups + 30 double unders in minute 1! You've got to be kidding me.

Doesn't Jami know that I can't do muscle ups at 6:15 am?  And then it started.  Not on purpose.  Not all the time.  But for the next day and a half I had little moments of panic...I had to do muscle ups first thing in the morning.

In the gym on Wednesday I would randomly look at the rings and think to myself how am I going to do this?

My success rate on morning muscle ups averages 40-50%.  This isn't the first time I've had to deal with these same emotions.  I've had to do morning muscle ups before.  And for some reason I can't explain, they just don't come out to play that early.

Wednesday was very nicely a complete rest day.  So, I did exactly as I was told.  Nothing.  I ate food, good food, every 2-3 hours.  I didn't move a muscle.  I didn't jump rope.  I didn't enter in any handstand walking races.  I didn't stretch or move.  I rested.

It's 5:13 am Thursday:  I walk into the gym and I can feel their presence.  I am alone and I actually speak out loud, "Hi rings, I know you're there, I can't see you, but I can feel you, and you will not defeat me today!"  As I flip the switches to turn the gym lights on I glance over at the Rogue Rig and they are hanging there waiting.  Just like they do everyday!


I get the 5:15 class started and as they warm up my mind starts to wander.  I think about the rings and the muscles ups that have to happen in about an hour.  In my mind I once again "speak" to the rings, "Hi rings!, I can see you now and I will not let you get the best of me today.  We are a team.  We are a unit.  I need you to be successful.  I will not let you defeat me."

I had a plan and a goal.

My plan was to do 2 reps for each of the 7 times this came around in the EMOM.  I also wanted those reps to be consecutive.  No more one at a time, I am better than that and there is no reason I can't get two in a row.

During warm up and stretch I was quiet and withdrawn...luckily my workout partner knows me well enough that he knows when to just leave me be.  During my entire warm-up I had to push the trash from my head and just kept speaking to the rings!  "You will not defeat me!"  "We are in this together!"  "Today is the day I get past this!"

Now, you may think this is a little crazy and I agree it was an extreme measure but we are 28 days from the open.  And I have got to gain the confidence in my head and just let my body do what it wants to do and knows how to do.  I am willing to take whatever measure it takes to get there...even if it means sitting in a dark room talking to an inanimate object when I am all by myself.

Today I beat the rings.

2,2,1,2,2,2,1= 12 MU in the WOD.
My goal was 14.
So when the WOD was over, I did 2 more.

In all of my 7 attempts at my muscle ups I strung two together - failing in round 3 to get the second rep and in round 7.  My grade on morning muscle ups went from a top score of 50% to 87.5%!!!

Good morning rings, I will not let you defeat me...





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