What's in my head this morning.....

So, here I sit 1 week out of competition and I'm wondering what the heck. 

I'm not really nervous yet, I'm sitting at mad.  Mad that my body isn't ready to do what I know it can do.  Mad that it takes time to heal.  Mad that I can't get my damn double under to save my life.  Mad that I can't have heavy whipping cream in my coffee.

And then I'm glad.  Glad that I can move again.  Glad that my food is going well.  Glad that I can at least lift the 65# bar this week.  Glad that I improved on my double under score this morning. 

And then I'm sad.  Sad that I can't lift my 85% on my back squat.  Sad that I can' t clean more than 95#.  Sad that I'm sad. 

Zach coaching me through my Fran PR 5:07

Then I'm happy.  Happy that I'm starting to get my handstand walk down pat.  Happy that it doesn't hurt to sleep.  Happy that I'm sleeping.  Happy that I found this miracle food called coconut manna. 

Then I'm disappointed.  Disappointed that my scores are lower than what I want them to be.  Disappointed that I can't fix my disappointment with chai's and ice cream. 

Then I'm excited.  Excited to see what the WOD's are going to be.  Excited that I get to spend my competition weekend with my little princess Brooke.  Excited that I get to compete against women my own age.  Excited that I have made it 18 days with no sugar and no dairy.  Excited that I lost 1.5 pounds.  Excited that I get to drink Progenix post WOD.  Excited that I'm about to make myself some type of pancake for breakfast.....

Maybe I am nervous:) 

Really, my problems aren't really problems....and it seems that the good outweighs the bad....this is just the silly stuff that runs through my head.