Fear to Pride

As soon as I hit the enter button I felt it - the bile started rising from my stomach and stopped in my throat like a knot. I thought for sure I was going to toss my cookies right then and there. But it was too late - I had already made the commitment.

It's the same feeling I get when I start my CrossFit workout. I think for sure that whatever is sitting in my throat is going to exit my body - but I swallow hard and I push it down. I won't let it come up - I refuse to let fear engulf me.

It's fear - fear of the unknown and the unknowing. Fear of what could should or might happen. Fear of making a fool of yourself or messing up. Fear I will not let it engulf me. Fear that I might step out of my comfort zone.....

.....and then it settles as I start my workout the knot disappears and everything is familiar. My body knows what to do whether it's a kettlebell swing, a clean and jerk, a pull-up, run, burpee, whatever my body pushes through and performs.

And then it's over. What are you left with when it's over? It's an entirely new feeling...the bile is gone, the fear is gone, and you are PROUD!! Pride is a feeling of exhilaration and excitement and knowing that you accomplished something of that magnitude - where just minutes before you feared now you are proud!!!

I like Pride - I like that feeling!

Committing to the 2012 Great Lakes Invitational at CrossFit Indy North left me with that exact feeling of fear - I can't wait to turn that into pride.

Train each day to make yourself better than the last.......